I wish...

... that I had something new to tell you guys.
But I've got nothing.

Inhale, exhale.

I need a smoke maaan.






I'm tired of hiding cigarettes. Help a girl out?
Light it up.

NEW

Mum agreed to getting my nose pierced. :)

Today is the day...

... to start all over.

Rootless Tree--

What I want from this is learn to let go.
No, not of you; of all that's been told.
Killers re-invent and believe and this leans on me, like a rootless...

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and all we've been through.

I said leave it, leave it, leave it, there's nothing in you.

And did you hate me, hate me, hate me, hate me so good.

That you just let me out, let me out, let me out of this hell when you're around.
Let me out, let me out, let me out of this hell when you're around.
Let me out, let me out, let me out.
Hell when you're around.
Let me out, let me out, let me out.
Hell when you're around.
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out.
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out.
Let me out, let me out, let me out.

The boy in the top right picture is only there for one reason.
The picture is incredible, don't you agree?

Let's...

... sex?
... smoke?
... live?
... cry?
... smile?
... sleep?
... love?
... die?


I would like to love you.
But, I need to start over.

I need to change.

Texting can prove to be unhealthy.

I got a new phone... AGAIN.
Mother wanted me on Verizon, so here we are.

Since the new year began, I feel like no one understands anything about me.

Except for Aaron. But, I need to find someone here who won't look at me crazy for smoking a cigarette, for wanting to change into someone new everyday, for drawing and crumpling every piece of paper that I conjured anything onto. Now that I think about it, I do have someone here that can be provide friendship like this. Hm, I feel as though there is someone that I haven't met yet though, that is the missing puzzle piece to my life.

People are expecting too much of me and frankly,

I can't take this anymore.

Is that what you wanted to hear?

I...

... absolutely, definitely love my smile.

Heeey_

It's beautiful outside.

Sometimes, I really want to live in a box.

rainy day poetry

she cringed as she felt water
SINK into the heel of her flat.

some puddles are [ u n f o r g i v i n g ].

but her distorted face quickly transformed into a SMILE.

a fracture within the
clouds had produced
a droplet of water

itself fixed had that
.forehead her upon

s l o w l y shutting her eyelids,
she w h i s p e r e d to the sky,

"GOD is in the rain..."

Oh my ___.

My new baby.

Is this how love is supposed to feel?


Canon PowerShot SX100 IS

Promise... broken.

So I promised that I wouldn't do that again.

I lied. My life, my mind, my body, my soul.

You forget that I'm the one that has to live with myself.

Question is... will you still love me?

'//'.'//'..'../

I walked home today, without my mp3 player.

...

I think I liked it.

Listening to the world occur around you isn't so bad.

stars.

When there's nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire.

][][][|][][

Assume nothing my dear.

11:11

I dreamt that I was in my kitchen, gazing out the window, as though I was waiting for someone to appear.

And there he was, the perfect boy. My eyes instantly locked onto his smile. He didn't even have to say a word and I just knew that he was going to meet me at my window.

I'm not sure if there was a ladder beneath his feet, or if he somehow levitated to my second-floor window, but he was there. In the dream, I could feel the happiness radiating from inside me, almost like the sun and its rays.

I suppose my window was already open and it didn't have a screen on it. He was kneeling through the window when I grabbed his hand to help him in. His hand was incredibly warm, even though it seemed freezing cold on the outside of my home. And then, without any signal, any word at all... it happened.

We kissed.




And then I woke up. I'll have my first kiss someday.